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It's a gloomy sunday afternooon
and I'm rotting to death without you
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6:43 AM,
Dec 31, 2008
Change is going to happened. My change. Just in time with the new year. Everybody prepared urself, there is going to b subtble change. Change that maybe only me could see it but change nervertheless. And just in time with the new year. I have a gut feeling this change is so going to be a good one.
6:16 AM,
Dec 27, 2008
How Christmas? Here is a late Christmas update. Do you remember wat do u every Christmas? Perhaps having a dinner with relative, shopping. Well for me, it was strolling down Orchard Road. From Taka walk up to Tanglin Mall. We used to do it every year. Used. Now, i did it all by myself, taking a walk through memory lane. For some unknown reason, despite reaching the end of my memory lane, i continued walking on. On and on till the Botanic gardens. As i walked in there, i finally realise that y i m doing that. It is just my pitiful approach to escape from reality, to escape from my life for a moment. i noe, you going to say tat i m a coward, i m just not strong enough. If tat wat you are tinking now. STOP. I m like having a lot of hard knock from the school of life and i don't need you to rub salt in my wound. I just loses a lot of my self esteem these days and i am really tired. But actually, i felt better. If 1 day you actually reach 1 of those down day, go 4 a long walk. And maybe if you are lucky, you get to see a beautiful Christmas tree at the end. :)
5:04 AM,
Dec 23, 2008
Death is something i read a lot in blogs. It seems to be a cliche theme. With lines tat repeated similarity "What will happened when i closed my eyes and nvr wake up?" "What happened when i die." and thought and opinion on blogs. As i was reading these such blog posts, it dawned on me. "Why do we ppl actually have such thought on death, something that nobody have control over it unless on purpose. Why not think more abt life? this at least something that we can control" So maybe we should treasure our lifes instead of thinking on these random things. Start making a list of wat u wan to do b4 u die. That way even if u die young, u will do it without any regrets cause u would accomplished something u would wan. So treasure life now, not after u almost come close of losing it. That how ppl react, on only losing it b4 noeing how much important it is.
6:46 AM,
Dec 21, 2008
On the train, i overheard a conservation on 2 ppl talking on blogs. And in this conservation , this person said tat she don't blog abt her life and emotions ect and instead blog on general topics like diamonds. Yeah, sure this may not means anything but tink, how true this statements is. In most blogs i read, ppl blog abt how perfect their life, a illusion they want ppl to see, to hide their ****up life and fake it in the virtual world. How many of us are guilty of posting something trivial instead of posting the bigger thing that affect our lives greatly. i guilty. But y?
6:25 AM,
Dec 19, 2008
I m nobody puppet. someone tat u can maniuplate.
I am a human being someone one who have emotions I m not young someone who can tink I am growing someone who learn by making mistakes the more you try to control me, restrict me, stop me, i go danger, danger, danger, out of control.
1:10 AM,
Dec 7, 2008
Well, these few days, i was with my maternal grandmother. Well, she is the only one left, the rest have been dead, buried, living alone. I noe most teenagers/ppl don't like spending time with their grandparents but u shouldn't have such a mindset. Cause u will learn a lot from them and for me, spenting time with them, doing some activities 2gether actually made me found bac my lost happuness. in that monent, i felt love, happiness, and all the sadness and anger such disappear. It such speaks wonders of a grandmother love. |