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It's a gloomy sunday afternooon
and I'm rotting to death without you
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4:48 AM,
Jan 28, 2009
Let me give a big shout out. Thank You for everything and celebrating my birthday. Thank you for your well wishes and gift. Thank you for being my friends. 2day, having bday song sang 4 times. Wow, shocking , was blushing like the whole time. (: Ok from here onward, serious business. Today have such been a real emotional roller coaster ride. Whatever emotion u say, i had experienced 2day. Honestly, i felt sick. I mean getting off on a roller coaster, how gd can you feel. Secondly, one of the weakness of most Aquarius and tat includes me tat we ppl are very unforgiving. I recognised it as a weakness and actually do make effort to change but it do get harder. To me, forgiving someone is really going to be hard 4 me and to me words like sry don't means much to me. I mean, when one say sry, wat can it do, create world peace, turn back time. My life is also pretty **** up and i don't feel that i do not need to take all that crap from you. Thirdly, how much do i mean to you? It have only be like 2-3 month and you have probably forgotten abt em. Hey, i no chances of us meeting is slim but i tink tat a sms of well wishes would be nice. You told me that you will be there when i need you, so where are you. Forthly________________________________________________________________ ________________________________________________________________________ _______________________________ Last but not least, most of the time, it alway me against the world. I am older, things are definetly getting harder. I ready.
6:39 AM,
Jan 20, 2009
I hate those superficial friendship. Just being friend for the sake of it because of popularity, having fun. There is nothing substantial about such friendship like these. One days, when you actually find urself having problem and you can't trust ur friends to talk to them and worst still, you have claimed that he/she have been your best friends for years. That's when you should noe that all along, you are having a superficial friendship. In the long term run, of course it is not gd. It is just on the surface that everything is gd and you and your best friends are thick, however, that deep down, everything is breaking, crumbling as time past slowly. It is just a matter of time. When it all gone, u will left with nothing, and that when you realised tat only ur best friends will remains true with you but then, it is to late to regret. It is just a matter of time.
12:57 AM,
Jan 13, 2009
People say hate is a strong word.. but so is love and people throw that around like it's nothing. This is so true. Maybe this is REASON WHY I DON'T I LOVE YOU. Cause this is 1 strong woed and to me, i won't say it unless u really mean a lot to me. Up to now i have.....
5:07 AM,
Jan 4, 2009
When i 1st met you in 2008, you are like my guardian angel and come down to help me get through it. Yes, I noe tat u will laugh as u hear this and i will deny it with all my heart but yes deep down, it is true. I was so expecting to see you again but no, u was not there. Well, i tink tat u are going to save another lost soul. Maybe, the next time, i m having a rough patch, i'll see you again. My 'guardian angel', he is tall, sparkling eyes, broad shoulders. He excludes a charm that make 1 let down their guard. He gains trust easily and despite my apprehensiveness of ppl noe everything of my life, i can't help but 2 tell. And the next moment, he gone.
I hope one day i will see you again. I leave it to fate. |