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It's a gloomy sunday afternooon
and I'm rotting to death without you
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2:06 PM,
Feb 9, 2017
I stop writing for the past 4 years, so much have happened. Yet, I have nothing to look back on.
I stop photographing for the past 4 years, so much have happened. Yet it is all a hazy memory.
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Strengths of mine in a relationship:
Sincerity, having a good heart, kind, compassionate, caring, loving, faithful, trusting, optimism, respect, empathy, gratitude
Weaknesses of mine in a relationship:
Ignorance, laziness, selfish, emotional
Things I learn and need to remind myself:
Not to take things/people for granted
You are who you are,
Don't change/forget about yourself for others.
Live life and every relationship/friendship to the fullest, with no regrets
Everyday, show the world your strength and everyday, work on your weaknesses
Don't be extreme, find the balance in life.
Don't waste time overthinking
Be thankful
At the end of the day, follow your heart and let it speak in your actions.
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When in the car, you said that I was a cockroach, a person lacking of sincerity. I was hurt. These qualities are qualities that I embrace in life, being resilience and being sincere.
In retrospect, I can see where you are coming from. I am more worried about losing the relationship that I forget who am I. These qualities I embrace become non-exisitent anymore in this relationship. I always thought, that if I am committed and sincere about the relationship, I should keep holding on, keep hanging your side but it become increasingly wearing down on you. Yet, I still cannot recognize any alternatives.
The truth is, if I am really sincere and care for you, I should end this relationship and let you find your own happiness. If, at the end of the day, I am the person for you, you will come back to me by my side.
And also, the truth is, if I am really sincere and care for you, I should be really listening out to you and make the effort to understand your perspective. Haha, the past few months have been all about me me me huh....I have been too selfish.
And the truth is, if I am really sincere and care for you, I should focus on being a better self and not overthink.
Even though, we have ended our relationship and move on to the next phase of friendship, thank you for.being my boyfriend for the past 2+ years. For now, let me work on being a better person, friend, son, student, colleague.
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